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05-13-25
I've been enjoying working on my site recently. A bunch has been
moved around in my file system around my journal entries will be
bare bones for now, much to my dismay. I feel like I'm
experiencing intense creative drive - I want to create all my ideas all at
once and never say no to anything 😆. There's this rush I get
each time I get a new idea. Not sure why I'm feeling this but
I'm enjoying it for now. I've been working on my Ourworld shrine
lately, and as I look at my old screenshots and explore dead
forums I get more and more inspired. The shrine is becoming
bigger than me just documenting what I enjoyed from that game,
its more of a celebration of the community itself.
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Outside of site-work life has been overwhelming lately despite
me being unemployed. I'll be moving back to my childhood home
soon. Not looking forward to it at all. I'm just trying to focus
on the financial benefits to cope. I hate the idea of moving
again, I've moved twice within the past 2 years and each time I
hated it even with people helping me. Moving makes me wanna get
rid of all of my shit so I never have to deal with this stress
again. I'm not enjoying job hunting either. I'm overcome with
anxiety every time I complete an application mainly due to
dreading returning to any corporate environment.
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But onto things I have been doing, I've seen Sinners twice and I
haven't been able to stop thinking about it. I want to explore
every corner of the movie until theres nothing left to find!
It's rare that a movie makes me want to research history just
for fun. I'm also playing D&D more and it's been great. I've
realized I enjoy the roleplaying aspect more than the combat,
but I'm only a level 2 fighter so my combat options are pretty
limited for now. I've recently joined DSA (Democratic
Socialists of America), they organize mutual aid efforts in my
community so I'll be joining in on that soon. I napped through
the orientation meeting for this month, but they do mutual aid
efforts every weekend so I'll meet some people then.
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life activities
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I've gotten sick of my IRL common place book so I haven't been
using it. I've tried to force myself to stick to a format just
for consistency sake and it wasn't working at all. Journaling &
common placing is fun for me because I can explore new things
within it but I've left that behind trying to make a system and
maintain an aesthetic. Seeing other posts online with people
showcasing their "journal systems" that have very clear
aesthetics influenced me to try it out myself. I fucking hate
it! It feels so restrictive even if I do enjoy looking at the
product of it.
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abandoning my IRL commonplace temporarily
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Overall life has been as difficult as it's always been for me,
but I'm enjoying little moments more. I'm really happy that I
created this site and I can be as creative as I want here.
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moments of joy
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