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Koi ga Ochitara

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English Title:

If Love Falls On You

review date:

3/24/25

author:

Ueda Aki
trigger warnings:
  • age gap

This manga is in my top 5 favs of all time. I looove a story with an early confession, great smut, and an affectionate seme - thats my shit right there! I don't remember how I stumbled on this story, but after reading I couldn't get it out of my head. The relationship is so sweet! Everytime I re-read it my heart flutters . I like how Yuuki's (MC) insecurities are shown & how Hishimoto's constant & clear acts of affection help to lessen them. Yuuki has a bad past with romance due to his previous partners leaving him for women which makes him insecure & scared to get into another relationship. The age gap in this story isn't that meaningful other than being used to emphasize how Hishimoto is different than Yuuki's ex's. The artwork is lovely & the smut is great and meaningful. I recently found a BLCD for Ch.1 in japanese and the voice acting is DIVINE to listen to while reading along .

Interview with the Vampire (2022)

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review date:

4/15/25

Favorite Character:

Claudia
trigger warnings:
  • domestic violence
  • nudity
  • gore
  • death

I cannot for the LIFE of me get my mind around how I feel about this show . Like... I re-experience the same emotional turmoil every time I start thinking about it. I don't know how to condense my experience into a nice little post that is more of a review and less of a rant. It's been a month since I finished and I'm STILL struggling - ugh! I'm not used to watching shows with complex characters that are evil and manipulative but also pitiful and beautiful. How do I balance my hate and discomfort with my empathy and love? These gay male vampires suck (pun intended). Lestat, Louie, and Armand are awful. I hate the way they view themselves, how they intentionally harm and manipulate each other, how they lash out and hurt others, and especially what they did to Claudia. I hate them! But their stories are so compelling. Even Lestat who perfectly represents what a white devil is to me, I found myself empathizing for him - which I hate! I don't want to feel bad for the white devil! Let him burn! I guess I can accept that I hate their actions and my empathy mainly extends to the situations that caused them to be who they are now. Idk, that still doesn't feel right but it's all I can accept right now.

I'm also struggling with accepting the fact that this is a love story. There is so much abuse, manipulation, lies, and intentional harm done within these relationships for me to see the love existing. A huge part of this show is who is telling the story rather than the story itself, but in every perspective their relationships just seems so painful. Maybe I don't know love at all, or maybe I'm focusing too much on the harm done. Their relationships just seems so horrific to me right now. Maybe this story is more about what could have been between them, or just the tragedy of vampires existence. I'd love to hear what other people think of the show and the characters.

MY CLAUDIA!!! After watching the show twice I still mourn & grieve for Claudia. Truly all the vampires she had contact with abused her and neglected her. Her story was tragic but beautiful and so heart wrenching. Her death fucked me up. I felt like I was grieving for weeks after seeing her die like that. Compared to the way Claudia died in the movie, her death in the TV show was much more gruesome and cruel. On the 2nd rewatch it was easier for me to watch but the sorrow still hit me like a wave. Claudia is my favorite. I loved how despite her creation being for the benefit of Louie & Lestat she existed for herself. I loved Delainey Hayles's performance in S2. Everyone was amazing in the show! As much as I hate these vampires the cast embodied these characters phenomenally.

Fun Fact: I watched IWTV before playing Baldur's Gate 3, and when I found Astarion I refused to put him in my party because I saw Lestat in him. This was my first "your choices matter and change the story" game so I was SOOO worried that if I put him in my party he would somehow fuck up my chances at saving people. He stayed in camp until the end of Act 3

Final thoughts for now: the show is phenomenal. I still have a mess of incomplete thoughts floating in my mind and more hate to spew about these fucked up vampires, but I'll let it rest for now.